Awake to another hot and sunny day, but I cannot go out to play. Another dream is put on hold since, I must do as I’m told. Another night is spent unwell as I woke to the ringing of the bell. Another day spent in sorrow because I know what comes tomorrow But, as I […]
I wanted a job. I wanted an apartment. I wanted to feel free. As I lay here, the minutes ticking by, and the sun shining in my bedroom window, I know it’s time to get up. I am not free. Things always look better until you get what you want. I have a job that […]
Yes, here we go! Over eating, nail picking, over thinking, overheated, close to crying, and completely terrified…ah, yes, this is where I shine. I’m quite good at having anxiety. Really, I’m currently having an anxiety attack. I took a week vacation away from work and I’m going back tomorrow and I want to cry. Yes, […]
So it begins. My depression is heavy and my anxiety makes me feel sick every day but, yesterday I did it. I ran. It wasn’t much. I told myself, run for 15 minutes then stop. Just slowly get back into it. I came home from an exhausting, stressful day at work, with a horrible tension […]
Anxiety and depression can be absolutely draining. I have been dealing with both for several years now and there are a few things I have done to help myself. Believe me I’ve been there, haven’t moved in days, stains on my shirt, watching Bojack Horseman on repeat. I know how that feels. I think it’s […]
My dream job isn’t exactly one specific thing. It’s not a marine biologist, or a doctor, or a teacher. I want my job to be something that combines all of the things I’m good at and love doing and making them my own career. I like to write, cook, sing, and do photography. Boom. Done. […]
To be able to wake up, shower, get mostly nice, and dragging myself into work every day takes a lot of strength when you have depression. Right now, this is not my best but it’s all I have. I should be running, I should be being a better communicator in my relationship, I should be […]
I’m so afraid to make my dreams come true. I’m afraid to be myself, say what I’m thinking, admit what I want, speak up for myself, and walk away from uncomfortable or horrible situations. And, why? Because, of co-workers, family members, people I went to high school or college with. I am afraid to put […]
I was told since I was a young girl, that I would finish high school, go to college, get married, have kids. No one tells you about in between these steps. I have gone through high school and gotten my degree, but now what? Work 9 to 5 or who are we kidding 7 to […]
