So you guys, do I have a tale for you… Ah, mental health, anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, unhappiness. As you already know. But, I decided I would do something strong and something bigger then myself and volunteer somewhere. Sounds like a good idea right? I browsed a few volunteer opportunities, specifically working with dogs because […]
I have absolutely no confidence. My self-esteem is non-existent. It’s not even that I see myself as necessarily ugly or unattractive, but every time my boyfriend compliments or tries to hold me I can feel myself mentally crawling into a ball. I was not pretty in middle school and I often felt invisible. High school […]
Anxiety to the outside means racing thoughts. Their not racing, their forcing themselves into my head, maybe me think I’m going crazy. No, no, running my hands over my face and through my hair, I’m not crazy, I’m not crazy. It’s an attack. It’ll pass. I look back at the mirror barely noticing I’m there […]
Hi Everyone! So okay, here we go. Another blog I am pretty nervous to post. Takes big breath…and publish! I am sick of who I am. I have been very depressed, dysfunctional, anxious, unmotivated, and honestly incredibly unhappy for a while. Great, I’m unhappy. Now what. I have tried to lose weight in the past […]
I’ve always enjoyed writing. And books were a way for me to tell the adventures I’d never have myself. The mysteries, the romance, the fantasies. Writing them down made them in some way real.
Guilt for being me. Guilt for things that I can’t change. There’s no real me. Just who you expected me to be. Better then them. Better then the popular girls, better then the bullies, better then expectation. Now I’m someone living a life full of expectation, guilt, and pain. I couldn’t make you happy. I […]
Me. That’s me. In the mirror. But, I’m not me. I’m not anything. Everything is wrong. Upside down. Unreal. There is no me. There’s nothing more frightening than looking in the mirror and not being able to recognize who’s looking back.
Even Naruto has panic attacks. The strong can break for even a moment and the weak can change. I feel stronger knowing that Naruto Uzumaki can hyperventilate and have a panic attack and faint. It gives me a reason to believe that my fainting spell could have been from having to be too strong for […]
Girls that are bullied, become insecure women.
The fact that you can tell that I’m anxious or that something is wrong, and calling me out on it isn’t exactly a super power. Tell me how to fix it and you’ll be my hero.